Do you ever wonder how many people going to their daily jobs each morning are happy? Have you seen them walking, robot like, cups full of hot beverages in their hands as they trudge off to some boring, demoralizing job that’s killing their soul each day? Have you ever seen yourself in a passing window front on your way to work and didn’t like what you saw? Feel like life has passed you by and that this simply CAN’T be all there is to it? Well I have. For too many years. That’s been my work commute for as long as I care to remember, all the time thinking that someone would save me from my own destiny of being one of the monkeys typing away on computers all day, making someone else rich.
As it turns out, by staying in jobs I was unhappy in (a succession of them I suppose), I was able to build up a higher and higher salary with bigger and more stressful obligations. But it didn’t make me happy. Instead it did the complete opposite, making me angry, resentful, short with my wife and kids, depressed, stressed, and just downright miserable as a person. I wasn’t the leader I used to be and it was showing. Of course it wasn’t all fire and brimstone and I had good times amongst it all, small blips of sunshine in a cloudy world, but in the end my career path felt less like success and more like punishment.
Eventually, in February 2019 my unhappiness led to the inevitable end at my most recent place of work. I went from hero to zero in a span of about two weeks, leaving me with nothing but a dwindling bank account, severe depression, and anxiety for weeks on end. The feelings it left me with were right up there with the death of my mother, and my failed marriage years ago. Even with the support of my wife, friends and family, I felt lost. But ultimately I was happy to be out of the job I had held and able to breathe again (in time) and re-evaluate my choices.
When the dust settled I started looking for new work in earnest. Applying for postings for the same line of work I had been successful in, believing that was what I should be doing. After all, I am University educated with an impressive resume yet it seemed like I was applying for the sake of applying, but not understanding why I was really doing it. By definition, the word “insanity” means doing the same thing over and over and believing that the outcome would be different. Yep. I was nuts alright.
So after chatting with my wife, my friends, and lamenting over what to do, the common suggestion I received was the same. I love fishing. I love being on the water, and I have the gift of the gab. I’m a half decent photographer, and writer. So why not do something that I am clearly passionate about instead of something I am not? Why not immerse myself into a life I have only dreamed of trying but was too afraid to try or locked into a higher salary? Why not….be a GUIDE. I made the decision to get the Transport Canada training I needed right away, and soon had the required certifications in hand.
In April, the timing was good to apply for guiding work, as most lodges were ramping up and hiring guides for the summer salt water season. I whipped up a “fishing resume”, drafted introductory letters and sent them out to about a dozen different lodges and outfitting companies and much to my surprise, almost all of them responded back positively.
Interviews happened fast, from remote lodges on Vancouver Island, Haida Gwaii, Rivers Inlet, and my local waters off Sooke and Port Renfrew. For the first time in my life I was excited about a job, like…actually excited! After meeting with a few different companies I got a good vibe from owners Ward Bond and Darren Wright of Island Outfitters (www.fishingvictoriacom) a local hunting/fishing store here in Victoria, and was hired as their new Port Renfrew charter boat captain. Along with their returning head guide Dan Findlow, and first time Port Renfrew local captain and young gun Colby Benty, the three of us would be running three boats all summer. I was super pumped.
As April turned to May, we worked on getting the boats ready for the season, and I spent time being shown the local waters off Port Renfrew by both Ward and Dan. I’ve got my own boat at home, but my boat for the summer was a 25 foot aluminum boat called Terminator, which required some time to get familiar with, especially as it handled very differently from my 21 foot fibreglass boat. I’ve fished in “Renny” lots before, but had limited experience fishing 12 miles offshore on Swiftsure Bank, not to mention being a rookie when it came to the techniques that Dan and the other guides use after seasons of honing their craft in the local waters. I had a lot to learn, and I was keen to start showing my worth. I knew that equally important was earning my credibility with the other guides, being the only true newbie at the dock.
In June the season started, and in the next few posts I am going to give you a peek into that life, the highs and lows, and what it all meant to me as a person looking for a new direction in life. I don’t want to give anything away yet, but what I will say is that anyone who thinks the life of a fishing guide is easy, and just a party every day….think again. It’s hard work, long hours, and it demands a lot from you and your family. Was it worth it? Well, you’ll just have to read the next few posts to find out!
River X. Not it’s real name, but for the sake of this blog post (and the fact I was sworn to secrecy) that’s what I will call the river this story is based on. Those who have read earlier posts of mine will recall when I wrote back in December 2015 (The Fear of Sharing and why Zipper Mouth Creek Will Always Survive) that Steelheaders can be a secretive bunch when it comes to places they fish. And sometimes, rightfully so. This Fall, I was invited along on a Steelheading trip in Northern BC with a group of guys that I don’t know, and one that I do. In return for my ticket to ride, I was asked not to give specific details on the river itself so as to discourage others from flocking to the area and crowding a spot that these guys have fished for the past 12 years. Out of respect for those wishes, I won’t spill the beans, but I will still tell the tale of River X and the trip that will go down in my record books as one of the most strange experiences that I have had hunting and hooking Steel in BC.
Let me start at the very beginning before this trip, and before I even knew that River X held promise. I’m a salt water fisherman as well as fresh water guy, and living on Vancouver Island I’ve had power boats of different sizes since the early 2000’s having since cut my teeth on open water ocean fishing for salmon, halibut and other bottom fish of all varieties. I’ve never written about any of those experiences (yet), mostly because I have been trying to keep the focus of this blog on fly fishing only. But it was my boat parked in my driveway one summer that led to an introduction to my next door neighbours son in law Mark Shannon (http://www.Mark11.com ) who as it turns out, is also a Steelheader, a former salt water guide, and professional photographer extraordinaire. Over the next few years following our introduction Mark made quite a few visits to our neighbourhood with his wife and kids and we’ve snuck out fishing on just about every trip. So a friendship was born, and a passion for these illusive steel unicorns shared.
Now it turns out that Mark and his friends have been making an annual pilgrimage from Calgary, Alberta for the past 12 or so years to River X. I’d been hearing tales about good sized steelhead being caught in numbers daily that most Steelheaders would be impressed to get in an entire year. Tall tales of landing six or more fish a day per person seemed like fantasy to me. I had to see this for myself so after dropping some not so subtle hints about heading up north myself this Fall and “could I possible tag along”, the invite came to join the crew for a few days and I snapped it up.
And so began the countdown to departure. Months turned to weeks, and in those last closing weeks many nights were spent at the fly bench trying up big gnarly intruders in blue, black and pink. Gear was laid out. Fly lines were cleaned and sorted. Multiple pairs of waders were packed, new thermal gear bought and rods packed away. After so much waiting with anticipation the day finally came to head out and after a short hour and half on the ferry I was off for the promised land with dreams of landing big chrome beauties every single day.
After a long an fairly uneventful solo drive north – fast forward to River X. Day one of fishing and in trademark British Columbia fashion and it brought the type of wet and cold weather I had expected. Donning the new thermal gear i picked up before the trip and feeling super confident that I would show these Alberta boys how BC Steelheaders take care of business on the river, I drove out to the meet up location and soon connected with the four other river warriors including Mark. It’s a sight to behold to see a Toyota Tacoma loaded up with three Water Masters and enough spey rods to outfit a local store, being trailed by another two pickups with keen fishermen aboard. We were on a mission and with the Alberta boys already having a two day head start on the river with promising catches being boasted, I had a good feeling that today would set the tone for the rest of the week.
Given the number of guys we had already planned to split into two groups. One group would drift higher than the others, and we would all meet up at the midway point each day. With three major floats on the menu of 16-18km in length each, there was ample opportunity over the coming week to fish a lot of brand new water for me. After a quick group rally and scotch toast, we set off to shuttle some vehicles, drop boats and gear, and hit the water.
My first drift was a mid section of River X, putting in high up and heading down through some interesting water. This particular float takes you far from the road access and as such you really get that feeling of being in remote wilderness. Having fished for Steelhead for the past twenty years, I’m no stranger to what type of water they normally sit in so I spent much of the day targeting what I thought was ideal holding water. The river levels on this trip were quite a bit lower than the boys were used to, causing a lot of their favourite honey holes to be unproductive. For most of the guys it was as if all they knew from the past 12 years was tossed out. As for me everything that I saw as fishy turned out to be a bust which made me really sit back and scratch my head and start to question everything I knew.
About midday while fishing a deep drop off riffle among one of many rain bursts Mark’s line suddenly straightened and put a good bend in the rod. “Fish on!” he yelled, backed up slowly from the deeper water he was casting in towards the shallows in order to land the fish. The first fish on the trip was soon to his feet and unhooked, posing quickly for a photo before being eased gently back into the river and on her way. Not a huge fish, but a nice sized hen with a shine like a brand new dime. Mark was all smiles of course and after a high five with yours truly went back in for more. But that was it for that spot despite a few more taps and so we moved on.
A few more bends down the river and both Mark and I hooked fish in close succession however these were Dolly Varden and not the steelhead we were looking for. I was pleased enough to have caught something at all having not had a single tug on my line all day. For the rest of the drift I divided my time between learning the secrets of this section of River X by watching Mark and his friends, as well as taking my turn casting and making my way through what looked like great steelhead water. At the end of the days drift we had only hooked the one fish between the three of us and ended our day at the pullout just as the light was starting to fade from the dreary day. We met up with the other float party who had seen better luck than us but still not catching the normal numbers of fish they were used to.
“First day, that’s all” I said to Mark and the guys. “Could be the weather pattern messing things up, or the low water. Tomorrow I am confident will be much fishier!” General nods all around and after boats were packed and gear stowed we headed home to rest up. I went home somewhat discouraged but mostly because I had dropped my camera in the river and watched it float down with the current only minutes into the first section of river in the morning. Perhaps I needed to make a sacrifice before I would be rewarded though. At $500…it was a decent offering.
Day two. This time we switched up runs and Mark and I drifted a lower section of the river while a few of the other guys went higher up. This section of the river was quite different from the upper section from the day before, as the river opened up wider and slower, with fewer large rock outcroppings and small canyons. The weather was a bit nicer though with mild overcast skies and no rain to chill us down. As Mark and I made our way down the river we stopped at quite a number spots and worked hard to see if we could rustle up a fish from the depths. With not much in the way of structure in this section of the river, you have to look for any river bed troughs that provide just enough shift in current for a steelhead to comfortably rest. “Forget about the usual headwaters and tail waters,” Mark told me, “you need to look for more trouty type water”. I started to look for riffled water or sections of river where two currents collided while Mark fished tight to shore along the banks where big troughs could be seen. And then it happened again.
“Fish man…got me a nice one!” Mark shouted, holding his rod high above his head as he tried to get back to safer footing having waded out almost to his armpits. “This one feels a bit better than yesterday!”
I quickly waded over to my boat and grabbed by DSLR (luckily that one did NOT fall in the river) and snapped a few frames of Mark getting the fish in closer. After a short fight the fish was soon in hand and tailed, with Mark being sure to keep the nice buck low in the water and sucking in the cold river water. A few more pictures and then he was gone, gliding back smoothly to his resting place deep in the emerald green water. From frantic splashing to calm silence everything went back to normal as the river eased back to sleep.
“Mark, a real nice one bud” I said, “good on ya, at least one of us is catching steelhead on this trip. Come on, let’s had a rip of some Fireball to celebrate before we get back at it!” And so we did. A quick break for a drink and some food and we headed off in search of more silver.
The rest of the day was a lot of casting, a great deal of rowing, and more casting. By days end we were both a bit tired and cold and we warmed up by having a nice beach fire at the take out while we waited for the rest of the guys and their reports.
Just as the darkness descended on us, two sets of bright off road lights lit up the dirt road as a convoy of two Alberta plated trucks loaded with boats pulled in. Rolling out of their trucks, in wet wading gear and big smiles, the boys revealed that they had a mixed bag of luck, but that one of the guys had a very good day. Not only had he caught three fish and had five on, but had seen several families of Grizzly bears and a very rare spotting of a Wolverine as well. I’ve seen many, many Black Bears on the river over the years, but I’ve never seen a Grizzly let alone a Wolverine!
At the end of day two I was starting to wonder what I was doing wrong, I wasn’t catching fish or even loosing fish plus had not spotted anything other than an abundance of eagles. Had I brought some sort of fish stink curse with me? It just didn’t make sense. We doused out the fire with loads of river water from empty wader boots and headed out.
As I bombed down the dark logging road, my head was spinning. I was at a loss to understand what the problem was….and why my fishing juju was missing. When I got to my hotel that night I decided that I would fish a different river the next day, and let the Albertans do their thing without me for a spell. Truth is I was a bit exhausted and had been suffering bad headaches all day so I needed a day to regroup. I texted Mark and told him I would take a pass on day three, and would connect with them at the end of their day tomorrow.
“All good man”, was the reply, “we’ll catch up tomorrow. Good luck out there!”
I slept hard that night, feeling both mentally and physically exhausted from two days of rowing and fishing, my legs chilled to the core from standing in the ice cold water for too long. When morning finally came I packed up my gear and decided to go into a nearby town to restock on some fly’s and to see if I could get any local intel on what I might be doing wrong. So I did just that. Spent a bunch of money on more flys and gear, met some locals and even some visitors from Vancouver Island and then hit the river again.
Standing hip deep in the cold flowing water, I tried to think what was missing from my fishing technique. My casting was good, I was getting nice long casts and good loops so it wasn’t that my gear wasn’t covering water. I went from medium sink to heavy sink lines to super heavy sink, with no difference. I swapped out flys, went from intruder patterns to regular hooks, then heavy weight to lighter. I switched up from classic spey patterns to egg sucking patterns. Nothing was making any difference and it was driving me nuts especially watching other fishermen a dozen or so rod lengths away hooking up and landing fish. To a fisherman who has started to doubt themselves, there is no greater torture!
As day three ended, my head was hung low again. Three days in, and no fish. Heading back towards my hotel in defeat I decided to turn back to River X and wait for the guys at the takeout spot to check in and see how they did. The day was coming to a close and by the time I got there the daylight was already fading and the temperature dropping off so I lit a bright little beach fire and plonked myself into a lawn chair to wait. Just as the dusk settled in the boys came around the bend in the river and soon had their boats tight against the shore and were happy to see a warm fire to great them.
“How was it?” I asked almost half heartedly hoping that nobody had even hooked anything.
“Not bad”, they said “got a few fish on and landed a few as well. Numbers were down today but stuck a few!”.
Well. Chalk up another win for the Alberta boys and another big goose egg for me. I filled them in on my day, and my lack of success. to which Mark said “Don’t worry bud you just gotta keep at it you know? It’s got to happen sometime, it just has to”. Man I really hoped he was right.
Day four came with the promise of good weather, and so it was that three of us took on the highest section of the river, drifting down from the headwaters to the first bridge crossing where we would take out for the day. The remaining two fisherman teamed up to fish a lower section of the river, and we agreed to meet at the end of the day to swap stories. The section we were hitting today had so far produced the highest numbers of fish hooked, so I was sure that today was my day. Today, it WOULD happen and my status as a successful Steelheader would be restored.
The three of us loaded up our Water Master rafts with our gear and food for the day, and made our way to the headwaters of River X, taking in some spectacular scenery along the way. The morning weather was spectacular, with not a breath of wind to disturb the calm surface of the water. As we began to pick up the current of the river we were absorbed into the emerald green water and quickly fell into the rhythm of rowing, with Coho salmon still active and spawning below us even this late in the year. As we drifted over some deep pools and nice looking riffles, scores of Bald Eagles both mature and immature lined the edges of the river in the trees, looking like guardians of the secrets below.
By noon we had drifted more than half way down our chosen section, fishing areas that had produced fish earlier in the week with no success. Bear sign was everywhere on the banks, with evidence of half eaten salmon carcasses and piles of scat gleaming with the seeds of huckleberries and other local fruits recently consumed. The bears around here were obviously not suffering from a lack of available food that was for sure, but despite being quiet during our float down River X that morning, not a single bear was spotted.
Pool after pool and section after section I tried my hardest. Cast, mend, swing, two steps downstream and repeat. Still nothing. By the time we hit about the 14km mark on our 18km drift, I was done. I was starting to think that this entire trip was a complete waste of my time. Four days of hard work with not even a single touch from a steelhead and only two Dolly Varden to my rod.
“If I wanted to get skunked fishing for steelhead I could have just stayed home” I muttered to myself, recounting the hours spent so far out in the cold water with no success. Being as discouraged as I was I rowed past Mark and his buddy and made my way down the last few bends without even trying to fish. The takeout was in sight and I was ready to get out of the water and that was that. Upon hitting the shore I grabbed my gear and hauled everything up to the road where Maciek’s truck was parked for the shuttle ride home.
Now a friend of mine often jokes with me that efforts spent fishing may as well be equated to just taking a handful of loonies and throwing them into the river. “You may as well just throw your money in the river first and then go home, because you won’t catch anything no matter what, and all you’ve done is spent a bunch of money on gear and magic beans that don’t work”. Truth be told it may indeed be cheaper to throw the loonies. So it came to be that while sitting on the tailgate of the truck and reading a book while waiting for the other guys to come off the water I suddenly heard a noise over the river.
“Ummmppph”. That’s how it sounded. Like a guy groaning getting out of bed after a big night out. I looked up and saw nothing so I refocused on the book I was reading and paid no attention. Then it came again…”Uuummmmppppph.” What the heck?! I raised my head and looked across the road and that’s when I got the shock of my life. Standing on its hind legs, towering taller than I am, was a Grizzly bear not even 30 feet away and looking directly at me.
“Get out of here bear!!!” I immediately yelled while grabbing for my bear spray and releasing the safety slide. “Go on bear, get outta here!” I yelled quite loudly and as soon as I uttered the last syllable the bear dropped down and scampered off. In reality I think the bear was just as scared and surprised as I was to encounter me as I was him or her. But I won’t lie my heart was racing and my body full of adrenaline and excitement! My first ever Grizzly encounter, and at close quarters as well – how awesome was this! Suddenly my day of disappointment had been turned on its head by a brief ten second encounter with one of the natures magnificent animals and I couldn’t have been more pleased to have ended my day in that manner. Well well, looks like day four wasn’t a total loss after all.
Day five saw another sunrise, another A&W breakfast, and another chance for steelhead redemption. With this being the last day of fishing for both myself and Mark, we had a shorter than usual window on the river as both of us had to be on the road by 4pm that evening. Having fished all the sections from the top of the river to the mid/lower sections we decided we had time to hit one more slower section of the river before heading home. Unfortunately due to easier access to the river we knew we would likely encounter more fishermen than the past four days, but regardless we knew there would still be plenty of river for everyone.
With the sun shining down on a bluebird sky, we enjoyed warmer temperatures and spent time working sections of less fished waters in the morning before ending up in heavier trafficked areas by noon. We had hoped that the morning part of our drift would give up a few fish and allow us some solitude before hitting the busier sections, but unfortunately it wasn’t to be. As we passed by group after group of anglers in the afternoon my chances of hooking a fish before heading back home seemed to be shrinking at an exponential rate.
Passing by Mark working a long tail out section from top to bottom I rowed hard through some slower water to find a section of river to fish before he would eventually leap frog past me. Such was the game we had been playing all week, trying to give each other enough room to fish without stealing each others water. Spotting a nice deep run that had all the hallmarks of “fishy” water I started to fish my way down through the run, edging closer and closer to where the bouldered bottom of the river started to slope up to the faster water downstream. I had switched up to a very heavy sink tip that morning at Mark’s advice as he told me that he had been bouncing off the bottom all week. At the end of my tippet I had tied on a pink intruder of my own design with heavy barbell eyes to try and reach those lower depths where hopefully a fish would be sitting.
Cast after cast I fished the section of river being sure to get the fly down low and slow with as little unnecessary rod motion as possible. And then it happened. The moment I had been waiting for for five long days. Actually check that….for the months leading up to the trip itself! WHAM!!!
Suddenly everything came alive. The rod bent fast and hard and line began to scream out while mayhem ensued below. Steelheaders will tell you that there is no mistaking it when you hook a steelhead because there is nothing else that hits as hard as they do or acts as aggressively when hooked. Finally after so much work and hundreds of casts my efforts had paid off and I was back in the game. Or so I thought.
Not even ten seconds in and suddenly it was all over when the fish snapped my fifteen pound leader like it was nothing. My one fish of the trip….was gone.
Was I sad? Not really.
Disappointed? A little but not too much.
Honestly I felt like a million bucks because I had proven that I still had what it took to catch a unicorn. Sure there was no tailing of the fish or grip and grin trophy pics (which I am not a fan off regardless, but I digress) but in fact by snapping me off the fish likely had a much better chance of surviving. And that made me feel good.
After tying on a new fly I fished through the run again and then left it alone, heading back to my boat and drifting down over the section I had fished. Sure enough as I passed over the tail-out of the pool I spotted my fish resting in the current, like nothing had happened. A beautiful chrome ghost that reminded me again why it is I pursue this crazy passion for steelhead. Never mind that it was on the third to last bend of the river for my entire trip or that I had thrown a $500 camera into the river. Never mind that I was exhausted and cold and felt like I had rowed for the entire 80km or river we had covered. Or that I had driven a very long way just to hook and lose a single fish. It had all been worth it.
As we drifted down the last few kilometres of river to the final pullout the sun shone down and gave us some of the warmest weather of the week. Mark and I packed out our boats and stowed them away for the drive back to our respective homes far away while talking about the trip and how it had been so different from previous trips for the Alberta boys to River X. This year marked the toughest fishing for sure, but ranked highest for the number of encounters with wildlife. Was it a success? I think so.
On this trip I learned a new river and have the confidence now to go back again and fish it with more knowledge than I started with. I now know the areas to focus on and the hazards to avoid. But most of all I was humbled by the fact that everyone always has more to learn in this pursuit of steelhead. And that even if you are a decent fisherman on your home turf that doesn’t mean you will be the same on new water. I think that’s the beauty of fly fishing really and it’s evident if you ever watch any of the slick fly fishing adventure films. Many of them feature experienced Steelheaders who spend a great deal of money to fly in to remote areas only to be stumped for days on end. It’s easy to forget that when you are out on the river yourself and getting beaten by nature. We are by our very design our own worst critics but perseverance is the key to success. As a Project Manager by profession we place a great deal of emphasis of “Learning from Experience”. So to close this post, here’s my LfE from River X:
River X you might have kicked my ass this time but I will be back and the next time we meet I will improve my results. To Mark Shannon and his buds from Alberta – thank you for allowing me to share your river with you and for letting me experience something new.
Tight lines and screaming reels!
For those people like myself who have to trudge into steel and concrete structures each week, sometimes without even the luxury of windows to at least watch the world go by, when you have a chance to go and reconnect with what makes you tick inside and recharge you take it. What that often means for people with busy work and family lives is grabbing each opportunity as they present themselves, and taking full advantage of it.
Recently I had such a window of opportunity, in between attending and cheering my step kids at busy baseball tournaments, yard work and general adult life. Lucky for me, I’m blessed to have a partner who understands my need for solitude, and the church of fly rod and reel. Having a partner that “gets it” is critical to being able to successfully balance life and work with a fly fishing addiction. Perhaps it’s the first step in the twelve step program, although in this case it only helps to propagate the affliction!
When receiving the green light to go fishing, I sometimes feel like a paratrooper, lined up at the back end of the C-130 Hercules, gear packed and ready to jump into action the minute that the drop signal is given. At the first sign of approval, one rallies the troops, packs the gear, loads up the truck and makes the jump before anyone has the chance to change their minds. Troops away..GO GO GO GO!
Having made my jump (figuratively speaking), and heading up the highway (I say up rather than down, as the first part of my journey normally involves a steep drive uphill, fueled with Tim Horton’s and high expectations), I had a plan in my mind to fish in the upper sections of the Cowichan River, due to the large number of resident trout that had been caught in recent weeks, particularly on dry flies. I had visions of quiet peaceful wading amongst drifting spinners, hooking trout after trout in solitude while deepening my already started fisherman’s tan. A few pit stops along the way to collect some water, snacks and other forgotten items (mostly due to my hasty departure!) and I was soon parked by the river, and strolling down to check out the action.
Let me pause here for a moment. Enter…the lemons.
When we as fisherman depart for our favorite river, we sometimes forget that it’s likely someone else’s favorite river too. Especially when said river is in prime shape, and even more so if that river is presently producing good fishing. And when access to that river is relatively easy to come by, the results should be fairly predictable, as per the mathematical formula below:
Excellent Water Levels + Easy Access + Abundant Fish + Good Weather = Crowded River
So, as it came to be, the above equation was heavily weighted against me so when I arrived at one of the access points on the Cowichan I was disappointed to see someone already there, and others waiting to join. So, what to do? Not being one to waste the chance to fish, and knowing that I had already leapt from the plane and parachuted in, I did what one does in such a situation. Out came the Backroads Map Book to find an alternative battlefield to run amok on.
The Cowichan River, being one of the most prolific and well known rivers on Southern Vancouver Island, often gets much attention due to its healthy population of trout, seasonal salmon runs, and of course the mighty Steelhead. But the Cowichan is only 1 of a countless number of rivers and streams that a fisherman can tackle, so I jumped back in my truck with a new plan. Given my geographic proximity to some other local hot spots, I picked one of my favorites that I haven’t fished in some time, and made the dusty run up the logging roads to my second destination. I figured that if the trout were hungry and rising in the Cowichan River, then certainly they should be doing the same elsewhere.
Having reached destination number two (I’m keeping this one to myself…sorry folks), I loaded up my 5wt rod, some small dry flies and nymphs, and bush bashed it in the general direction of the river I was targeting. I had fished this particular river a year ago, prior to it closing for the winter season, and I was keen to go back and take a look at it during the spring. Last June I had done some recon and had spotted a school of about a dozen fresh chrome Steelhead ghosts, but at that time decided to leave them alone. The fact that the water was gin clear would have made fishing for them tough anyway, as even my shadow on the water was spooking them. But fishing for Steel was not my goal today; instead I was looking for hungry trout, eager to take something small.
As I walked down the small river, I made cast after cast into the dark cool seams of water moving below the overhanging branches and banks, poking around to see if I could find trout resting in the colder and protected waters. There were some great looking spots that I made note of, but I didn’t get any fish to take hold. I wondered if the water levels were maybe too low, or perhaps resident fish just didn’t come up this high in the system? Checking out the river bed, the food supply looked minimal, until I came across more and more caddis larvae in their protective shells of leaf litter, and sand. Certainly with life on the river bed, there must be something around to eat it?
Wading through the river, and squeezing my way through groves of fresh alder, I came upon the start of a section of canyon, where the river spilled noisily into a deep pool that marked the start of a canyon runs. Harlequin ducks were milling around, telling me that there must be something of interest in the depths below, be it aquatic life, or fry. Looking at the way the shallower water spilled into the pool, I wondered if there were some trout sitting just below the white water and the drop off, waiting for food to spill down over into the cool, oxygenated flow. Tying on a small nymph pattern, I dropped the line upstream, and allowed the current to bring it down over the drop off, and let it sink into the bowl of the pool.
As the fly spilled over the riffle and I waited for it to sink as far as my patience would allow, I suddenly felt the line go taut and felt the tug on my 5wt that immediately gave me that rush of excitement I had been craving. YES! Fish on! My little Hardy lightweight reel began to sing, just a few times, as the fish below realized that something was not quite right. Circling around in the pool right in front of me, I could tell that this was no small trout, but could it be something more substantial? Do I even dare presume? And then it happened…the fish came right to my feet near the edge of the tank and showed itself. It was a Steelhead!
My heart pounded, the endorphins rushed over me and I felt immediately pleased with myself that not only had I hooked a Steelhead, but more importantly that I had remembered to bring my net (which I hardly EVER do). This wasn’t a 15 pound chrome hen or buck, but it was a Steelhead and none the less would present some challenges to land uninjured on a 5wt rod, with no help. I played that fish very gently, applying minimal pressure to get it to come closer, until it was within reach of the net and I was able to gently scoop it up.
With the fish safely tucked away in the net, I let out a mighty whoop of success. It was a nice female steelhead, likely left over from the winter and on the mend. Not too colored up, in good shape, and kept nice and wet in the river as I took a few quick photos of her at my feet in the net. After the briefest of moments of admiration, I gently let her go back into the safety of the pool, unharmed. As I watched the fish swim away, I just sat there and reflected on what had just happened for the next 10 minutes. I had not successfully landed a Steelhead on the fly so far in 2018, and had lost one on the center pin rod in January, mostly due to crazy high water. I hadn’t expected to catch anything but trout on this day, so to have been rewarded unexpectedly with a Steelhead was icing on the cake.
For the rest of my day, I continued my hunt for trout along that river, climbing high above the canyon until finding somewhere lower down where I would re-access the river. I took home a lot of new scratches and bruises from my efforts, mostly from having to clamber over untamed west coast wilderness, but I also took home a great memory of an unexpected fish, and a surprising turn of events. From the prospect of a very busy day on the Cowichan, I ended up instead with remote isolation and a huge reward for my decision to take the road less travelled. I think you will agree that I certainly turned some lemons, into some amazing tasting lemonade.
Until the next adventure, the next tug on the line, and the next hike into both familiar and unfamiliar rivers, I’ll keep this day top of mind and can’t wait to have another one.
2017 has been a rough year, and considering it’s not even over yet it may get worse. Canada lost some pretty great people this year, most recently with Gord Downie of the Tragically Hip, and CBC Radio storyteller and host of the Vinyl Cafe Stuart McLean. And in our own family, my wife lost her brother Ferlyn suddenly and unexpectedly one summer night, breaking hearts amongst all of us. I mention these people not because I knew all of them well, but because they were people I felt I knew through their stories and their larger than life personalities. People who had made a difference in our small world to many Canadians, and touched many lives , and with whom I have both belted out a badly sung tune to as well as laughed out loud. But there was someone else we lost this year who I knew well. Someone who I spent time with, laughed with, and called a friend. That someone, was Steve Milne.
I first met Steve many years ago on my first ever back country fishing trip to the Burman River, just west of the small town of Gold River on Vancouver Island, BC. It was my first foray into the wild with a bunch of strangers (save one person) and although I didn’t know it at the time, it was to be the first of many adventures with the same motley crew. The trip had been arranged by Steve’s brother Bruce, who if you’ve read any of my other posts will know is a friend of mine who I have had the pleasure of joining on more than a few adventures. As a man reaching almost 50 now, when I think back to some of the life events that have shaped who I am as a grown man today, that trip will always hold a special place for me. Some day I will write more about it, but for this tribute to my friend Steve, it’s Pretty Girl Cove that brings me back to happier days.
In May of 2006, setting forth from the small coastal tourist town of Tofino BC, myself and six other fellow fisherman including Steve and Bruce loaded up a water taxi and headed north through Maurus and then Calmus Channels, then out towards Hot Springs Cove, a popular tourist destination as a result of the natural hot springs that occur there. From Hot Springs Cove we headed further inland until we arrived in the naturally protected Pretty Girl Cove, a stunning estuary surrounded by untouched forests that have yet to hear the siren song of chainsaws and the drone of logging trucks. On a good day, the ride out can be an amazing trip, once you pass through the ocean swells of Cats Face Passage, and into the more protected waters of the many channels and inlets of Clayoquot Sound. On a bad day, you might just lose your lunch! But for this trip we had a clear sky and calm waters, making for a fantastic ride out to our destination.
Upon reaching Pretty Girl Cove about an hour later, we set about launching our canoe and a zodiac to begin the arduous task of ferrying our mountain of gear to shore, as the estuary does not provide enough depth for the water taxi to get very close. Just as we began the process we spotted two bears grazing peacefully on the grassy plain of the estuary, quite oblivious of our arrival, and seeming to care very little for the human invaders. After having been on a few of these types of trips prior, we all knew our jobs and soon had everything ashore and waved goodbye to the water taxi for the next seven days. The bears being of little help, continued to graze until they caught wind of us, and soon sauntered off in the to bushes.
One thing you need to know about my friend Steve, is that he was never one to go without when on a camping trip. The man was known to bring at least four or five jackets, six rods, three coolers (one just for ice for his drinks none the less!) and was renowned for his infamous fitted Queen size bed sheets to fit over his air mattress and between himself and his down comforter. In fact, I believe that on this particular trip, there was even a side table brought, to put his radio on to listen to the Vancouver Giants hockey games, while in bed. Steve had grown up camping with his brother Bruce and their Dad Byron, so camping out was nothing new. But Steve knew two things and practised them well: how to be comfortable in the woods, and how to enjoy life.
For this particular trip, we were set upon fishing the two small rivers that feed into the estuary, which are the Ice River, and the Pretty Girl. This being my first time visiting this spot, I was keen to get on it and so spent the rest of the first afternoon rushing to set up my tent and get to the fishing as soon as possible. Unfortunately I didn’t spend enough time really looking at my surroundings and so upon completion of setting up my tent went to take a look around the area. Much to my surprise, I soon located a rather recently used day bed for bears about 30 feet from my tent! I considered moving my tent, but decided that if these bears were going to give us problems it wouldn’t matter where we camped. So I left it where it was, and hoped that the bears would give me some distance and I would do the same.
With camp set up, tarps strung, and beers already cracked, everyone set out for the first fish of the trip and after a short walk up the river everyone had fish on the line. Being a pretty small river system, and fed primary by Pretty Girl Lake at some elevation above, the water was not only very clean, but very cold. The odd thing about this little system (we all soon discovered) was that for the first few days of the trip the fishing was great, with everyone catching lots of feisty Cutthroat trout, and even one summer run Steelhead. But within about three days, the fish very quickly became hook shy and the success rate dropped rapidly.
To fend off the lack of fishing, and grumbling that would follow, the group decided that we would entertain ourselves in camp by foraging for clams and oysters, and taking some time to sit back and unwind while watching our big furry neighbours get fat on the succulent grasses. The estuary in Pretty Girl Cove gave up some fair number of huge oysters at low tide, as well as delicious Butter and Razor clams for us as well.
The Oysters were quickly dispatched by baking them over a camp fire until their shells opened, while the clams sat in a pot for the day with a mixture of salt water and oatmeal to cleanse them of the sand inside. While I am no fan of oysters, I will say that the clams were delicious and our party of seven enjoyed a bounty of shellfish delivered literally to our doorsteps. Not a bad way to spend a day, even if there were no fish on our lines.
As our week progressed, we were blessed with great weather and no rains, unusual for May in Tofino. In fact, we had some evenings that were so clear and cool that I recall waking up in my tent in the morning with completely frosted hair and wondering how on earth I was going to get warm again. But the benefit of the clear nights far outweighed the cool mornings, as I saw more stars in the night sky, untarnished by the light pollution of the cities, than I have ever seen before in my life. Sitting in a camp chair in the blackness and silence of the estuary late a night, I felt both incredibly lucky to be there with such good people, and incredibly small in the universe. More importantly, I felt privlideged to have been invited, to be part of the tribe so to speak.
Now as for Steve, the first time I met him I wasn’t sure about him to be honest. He was big, loud, a little obnoxious, a bit intimidating and definitly larger than life. I guess being someone like myself who grew up not having much confidence in myself around guys who were jocks, I felt a little twinge of that boyhood fear of being the odd man out, somehow not “cool enough” to be considered an equal. Steve and his brother Bruce had been rugby players for most of their high school years, and had the bum knees and war stories to boot. And I will admit that I wasn’t sure Steve thought too much of me, as I was the “newbie” on that particular trip to the Burman River, and certainly wasn’t a seasoned back country camper. I guess I shouldn’t have cared what he thought of me, but I did. I always do.
This trip to Pretty Girl was my second trip with Steve, and again I felt that awkwardness again of being the skinny geek that nobody wanted on their team. Always last to be picked, never seen as the guy you want to have. But I learned something about Steve on the trip that I didn’t know. Sure he was a big burly dude with an infectious laugh and seemingly endless number of stories. But he was also intelligent. Thoughtful. Kind. Caring. Respected. You see, I came to learn that while the Steve I knew on the outside was the brash funny guy with the big laugh, the professional side of Steve revealed much more. Steve was someone who stood up for the little guy. Fought against big corporations for the benefits of those employed by them. Steve gave a powerful voice to those who didn’t have the strength or the will to speak for themselves. So in fact, Steve was more than he let on, and if anything was the guy who would have stood next to me when the chips were down. When Steve passed away suddenly this spring, some three to four hundred people came to his funeral. People who were his friends, his team mates, colleagues, and those who he had helped over the years. His passing did not go unnoticed.
This past fall, Steve’s brother Bruce hosted a memorial weekend for his brother on the Stamp River, near Port Alberni. The Stamp holds a special place for the Milne’s, as Bruce, Steve and their Dad camped there often over the years, fishing for salmon and steelhead in the Stamp and Ash Rivers. It was a fitting place to gather friends and comrades to remember Steve, to share stories and tears, and pass quiet moments grieving the death of a good man and friend amongst people who cared about and loved him. There’s that expression that you never see a grown man cry, but I can tell you there were tears shed by more than one. As one of my dear friends told me that weekend, men don’t tell their friends often enough that they love them and it’s real shame that we don’t. We’re on this planet for such a short amount of time, and we should never feel ashamed to tell our buddies, our kids, our loved ones how important they are to us. You just don’t know when they will be gone.
At the end of that weekend on the Stamp, and with his brother and friends gathered around late at night, some of Steve’s ashes were released into the river, to mingle with the memories he and his family have made there over the years. It was a fitting tribute to Steve, and I am thankful to have been a part of it. I will never forget the memories shared with Steve, the outrageous meals cooked in camp, the expensive bottles of Scotch, bear bangers and white gas, tales of rugby mayhem on road trips abroad, and the infamous camping trips that I didn’t make it to.
That trip to Pretty Girl didn’t really stand out with regards to the fishing, but what it lacked in fish it made up for in breathtaking scenery, amazing opportunities to watch bears, and most importantly the sharing of time away from the world with a fine bunch of guys. So to Steve, I say thank you for showing me that my inner voice is not always right. That I am not the person I feel everyone else thinks I am. That I was in fact, “cool enough” to be considered your friend too. I know you loved Pretty Girl, as much as we all do, and especially the bears that liked to visit.
Rest in peace my friend, you will always be with us on the river.
Update: Found some more pics in the archives!